Staying Focused.

Staying focused is something I have always seemed to have an issue with and as of the late that hasn't changed. I planned on beginning a work out regimen on Friday but because I was tired after a long week of work, and had my boyfriend round for the weekend, I sort of failed. 

Needless to say when my boyfriend headed home this afternoon I decided it was time to take action, and actually work out. The 10 lbs I have managed to gain after my surgery will not melt away on their own so at last today (only just finished my workout about 10 minutes ago) I did the workout I had set up for myself on Friday. It only took me a total of 11 minutes to complete but I am still proud of myself for actually going through with it.

1. Plank (I held it for a total of 1 minute, go me!)
2. Downward Facing dog (Held for 30 seconds, I hate that yoga position it kills my calfs)
3.  Knee to Elbow Crunches, from the Downward Facing Dog position (15 reps per leg)
4. Lunges (15 Reps per leg)
5. 20 Squats
6. 20 Toe Taps
7. Kickbacks (10 Reps per leg)
8. 30 Second Squat Hold
9. Side Leg Lifts (15 Reps per side)
10. Side Plank Lifts (15 Reps per side)

That concludes the workout I did today, now it is time for me to chug a nice bottle of water, and have a shower. I was planning on walking to Wal-Mart for some eggs and other tid-bits later but I think I shall skip that as I really don't need eggs that badly.

Hope you all had a lovely weekend!
Until next time, keep on smiling :)

Journey's

Life is a very confusing journey at times, but I guess that's just the way it goes. Emotions and feelings aren't things we can just shrug off nor are they things we should let control everything we do though. That's something I need to keep on telling myself lately. It's ok for me to feel the way I do, because that's just the way I feel, and I can't change it, however I cannot let it control me.

Anyways, I think I am going to say goodbye to the youtube world, it is something I have put a lot of thought into and considering the last video I made on my own personal channel was I believe a good two years ago anyways, it didn't seem that big of a deal. I will however miss TwoPotterGirls, it was a way of me being able to connect with my friend Lucy between the distance, but I am sure our friendship can survive without youtube, and I truly hope that it does. I am not going to say that I am closing the door on youtube forever because I don't know that I am, but for now at least I think its safe to say goodbye. 

Blogging is something I really want to start focusing on more. I have quite a bit going on this year, so it may actually be possible for me to successfully keep up blogging. That being said I have no idea how often I will actually be doing this, I do just know that I want to start doing more of it!

First things first is the upcoming Vegas trip in just 18 days, after which I plan on taking a first aid course, and finally getting my GED. I was going to take my GED Exam this month however with my funds even more pressed than usual because of the upcoming trip I have put it on hold until March or April. I will also be taking Drivers Ed this year and finally getting my license, I have my learners license already but its time I start driving. I am so fed up with public transportation. 

I will hopefully pass my GED exam and get the certificate after which I plan on enrolling in an Administrative Assistant course come fall. Fingers crossed all goes to plan. It will keep me very busy this year but I'm pretty happy with this plan of action to get my life on track!

Until next time, keep on smiling! :)

Personal.

I think  in life we often think that everything has to go a certain way. I know at least I do, I did. It may seem sad to say that although I had gotten used to nothing going my way, every time it didn’t I felt defeated. I’m nearing my 25th birthday and for the first time in my life I realized its ok, its ok not to have the answers for everything, its ok to be afraid, what isn’t ok is to let your fear define everything you do. A lesson learned perhaps some would say too late in life, but everyone grows up in different ways, and just because I’m 24 it doesn’t necessarily mean I have let go of my childhood, and truth be told I haven’t. That is one of my fears, allowing myself to be the adult I am supposed to be. I know I am no longer a child, or even a teenager, but I still don’t feel ready to be an adult, and the fear of letting go of that strange in-between stage I am stuck in, is hard; but I know that it is time, time to be an adult, time to just let go and live my life. Fear is not going to rule me any longer. 

A New Year

So it is now officially 2014. I have a lot planned for this year and I just hope that in the end it all works out. Next month I will be writing my GED exam and at the end of February my boyfriend and I will be going to Vegas with his family.

I will also hopefully be able to find a better paying job soon, and hope to take drivers ed this year.I also plan on taking a course in school come the fall and I will be turning 25 in April, which just seems insane. How am I 25 already?! The years sure do fly by.

That is all for now but I should be back with some more blogs this year.

Happy New Year everyone! :)

Won't Give Up.

I've been feeling miserable the past few weeks, and I'm sick and tired of being in that sort of mood. OK so my plan is to forget those who have misjudged me, they don't know me as well as I hoped and thought that they did, and they sure don't know me as well as I know myself. Now when I say forget them, I don't mean I am cutting them out of my life that's just ridiculous. 

What I should have written rather was let go of what they've said and move on. Life is never going to be perfect I'm very much aware of this fact, and I do realize that it's going to be a constant battle for me to get the things I want out of life, which is OK. That's what is going to help me learn more, and more as I carry on in life, and that's just the way it goes.

So my promise to myself is to just let go. Focus on me, and my happiness, and don't worry so much about what everyone else is saying about me. That being said, the relationships I do have with people mean a lot to me, so I'm not trying to say that peoples opinions don't matter to me, I just refuse to continue carrying the negativity, it's not doing me any good. So if anyone has anything nice and positive to say to me I'm all ears. But just be warned if you say something negative about me, I will shut it out, and fully ignore that you've even said something. Selfish? Rude? Maybe, but I just don't care anymore.

It feels like my happiness doesn't belong to me anymore, and this is going to be my way of taking it back. After all it is me and only me that should decide how I feel about things.

Back to Familiar Places

Hello All,

I've decided to come back to dear old blogspot. Now I have nothing against wordpress, but thought if I'm going to carry on with my blogging adventures, I'd like to come back to this nice familiar blog, that I started with, this is where my blog began, and I feel that it should end (not today, but in the FAR future one day).

Most of you, or all of you should know by now that Dave and I have gotten back together. We had a nice 2 or 3 week break from our relationship, where we built a foundation of friendship which was muchly needed. I'd go into further details about things, but I want to try and keep my relationship as personal as I can from now on. I know it's ok to talk about it, but I also now no longer feel the need to share every single detail with everyone. The relationship is between me and him, and I'd like to keep it that way. All I am going to say is that things are wonderful and we are very much in love!

Moving on from my relationship status, I believe most or all of you also know that I lost my job last month and have recently started working at Second Cup as a barista. I hate every single second of my new job, and although I know I've only had four shifts, I really don't like the fact that I'm now back at the spot of forcing myself out of bed to go to a job that I hate just so I can pay my bills. I sincerely hope that something with a better pay, and that I will find more enjoyable comes my way soon. I have been applying for a lot of bilingual jobs, trying to use my French to my advantage but so far am having no luck there. 

The game plan for next year is to get my GED, take either an Admin course or a Dental Receptionist course (I had my mind set on Dental Receptionist, but am now starting to think Dave is right and that I can do something more with my Bilingualism...Bilingualism, is that even a word?!), and take Driver's Ed to finally get my drivers licence. Dave and I also want to take a first aid course together, and at the end of February we'll be heading to Vegas for four nights, courtesy of Dave's lovely parents, all of his family will be coming, and his brother Stephen will be getting married during our time there. I'm so excited about the trip and cannot wait to go. Needless to say I'm actually very much looking forward to 2014 and I hope that it's actually going to be as good as I'm planning it to be.

That's all for tonight, I should probably get some shut-eye, have to work in the morning!

New Beginnings. (Part 2)

Today I made the official choice that it's time for a new beginning, time to remember my dreams and discover new ones. Time to start the long, hard process of moving on. Part of me feels as though for Dave, letting go of me, and letting go of our relationship is easy, but I really don't know that. I have no idea how he's feeling about all this, and it will do me no good to sit around and have negative thoughts about it all. 

I have thoroughly enjoyed my time writing blogs here, but as a part of my new beginnings I have set up a new blog. Hence this one having part 2 in the title, though in reality I suppose this one is part 1, after all I am writing it first. None the less this is my farewell to blogspot, but not my farewell to blogging all together.

To new beginnings, possibilities, dreams, and a positive outlook.

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