Dear Void,
I miss the way you held my hand, the way you played with my hair and told me how beautiful I was when we cuddled on the couch, I miss the way you made me laugh, and coming home to you. I miss all of the days we won't have, but most of all I miss the man I know you can be, instead of the one you choose to be.
You probably don't miss me, or my smile, or anything. You're just moving on along. Was it all lies? Or was there truth within the mask you wear? I'll never get my answers. This I know. Goodbye my friend. Goodbye my lover, our time came to an end. I'll never forget, but I hope with time my missing will also end.
Katherine C.
Monday 14 November 2016
Saturday 20 September 2014
Bad at This.
It seems to me
that every time I promise myself I'll be more attentive to blogging the gap
between blogs grows bigger...but I could also be imagining that. I do know
however that I'm bad at this whole blogging thing. Something to try and keep on
working at...here we go yet again; I am promising myself to do this more
often...dun, dun, dun!
Today has been an exceedingly good day. I'm in a fabulous mood, and although things are most definitely not going the way I want them to in my life at the moment; as every day passes I'm becoming more and more aware that it's OK to let all of the small little things, be what makes you happy. And I do like to say "keep on smiling" so that's another thing I am going to try and work at more...smiling.
This afternoon was spent with a very lovely co-worker. I'm glad to have made a new friend that I have so much in common with and who gets my crazy nonsense. We went and saw Maze Runner, which was AMAZING by the way, and I highly recommend it. Now I have to admit it’s one of those books you tell people you've read...only in reality it’s a book you've been meaning to read...so after the movie I decided I needed to purchase the book. I figured if the movie was that good, and so intense; the book HAD to be even better...as books tend to always be in these cases.
However as I'm still only half way through my Insurgent book (distracted/lazy/can't be bothered) reader of late I'm not even sure when I'll get around to giving Maze Runner a read. But I am determined to finish the Divergent series before I pick up Maze Runner. And that is what I shall do. Starting tonight I must read for at least one hour a day...can I do it? I better because I truly like the idea of being my usual avid reader again.
I hope that you are all having a lovely September, I cannot believe it’s already so close to October. This month has been flying by...where did September go?!
As autumn is my FAVORITE season...I leave you all this picture of my fall display plate that I put together tonight (about an hour ago).
Today has been an exceedingly good day. I'm in a fabulous mood, and although things are most definitely not going the way I want them to in my life at the moment; as every day passes I'm becoming more and more aware that it's OK to let all of the small little things, be what makes you happy. And I do like to say "keep on smiling" so that's another thing I am going to try and work at more...smiling.
This afternoon was spent with a very lovely co-worker. I'm glad to have made a new friend that I have so much in common with and who gets my crazy nonsense. We went and saw Maze Runner, which was AMAZING by the way, and I highly recommend it. Now I have to admit it’s one of those books you tell people you've read...only in reality it’s a book you've been meaning to read...so after the movie I decided I needed to purchase the book. I figured if the movie was that good, and so intense; the book HAD to be even better...as books tend to always be in these cases.
However as I'm still only half way through my Insurgent book (distracted/lazy/can't be bothered) reader of late I'm not even sure when I'll get around to giving Maze Runner a read. But I am determined to finish the Divergent series before I pick up Maze Runner. And that is what I shall do. Starting tonight I must read for at least one hour a day...can I do it? I better because I truly like the idea of being my usual avid reader again.
I hope that you are all having a lovely September, I cannot believe it’s already so close to October. This month has been flying by...where did September go?!
As autumn is my FAVORITE season...I leave you all this picture of my fall display plate that I put together tonight (about an hour ago).
Until Next time,
Keep on Smiling :)
Thursday 3 July 2014
Keep On!
Sometimes in life things don't go the way we planned and we have to learn to pick up the pieces left behind by the many things we fail at in our lives. But the most important thing that we can do for ourselves is to carry on, to keep trying, to refuse to let that failure win, to stare down our bad luck and unhappiness and tell them "Not today!" To make sure that no matter how far away happiness may sometimes feel we never fully let go of it. May we always hang on tight to a small corner of happiness and keep on tugging until we manage to find it again!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
Sunday 18 May 2014
Letting Go.
The past few days of living on my own have left me with far to much time to myself. Don't get me wrong. I love knowing that its my apartment, that I only have to clean up after myself, and that I at last have my own space, and its making me feel so grown up. However me being alone all of the time isn't a great thing. Me and my brain aren't very good to each other when left alone, haha. I must sound a bit insane right now but its the only way I really know how to put it.
David and I have remained friends as planned, and have spent some time together this weekend, he was even kind enough to come over today for a few hours so that I wouldn't be alone all day. The hours spent alone are ok if I manage to keep myself busy with dishes, or setting things up, but I can't seem to focus on things like shows/movies, and reading for very long.
Then just all of a sudden I decided I need to just snap out of it. I need to just focus on myself as an individual and stop worrying about everything else. Yes I'm single, yes it's lonely, but how on earth did I manage all of those years alone without David, if I feel I can't now? The truth is I can! David hasn't even left my life and I am very grateful that he's still here for me. Its different, but he's a good friend and no matter how hard things are at the moment I wouldn't change him still being around for anything.
Time to focus on me, and what I want to do with my life, and stop worrying so much about being alone. It's OK, and things will one day be better!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
David and I have remained friends as planned, and have spent some time together this weekend, he was even kind enough to come over today for a few hours so that I wouldn't be alone all day. The hours spent alone are ok if I manage to keep myself busy with dishes, or setting things up, but I can't seem to focus on things like shows/movies, and reading for very long.
Then just all of a sudden I decided I need to just snap out of it. I need to just focus on myself as an individual and stop worrying about everything else. Yes I'm single, yes it's lonely, but how on earth did I manage all of those years alone without David, if I feel I can't now? The truth is I can! David hasn't even left my life and I am very grateful that he's still here for me. Its different, but he's a good friend and no matter how hard things are at the moment I wouldn't change him still being around for anything.
Time to focus on me, and what I want to do with my life, and stop worrying so much about being alone. It's OK, and things will one day be better!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
Saturday 26 April 2014
Hard to Let Go
This is one of the hardest blogs I have ever written. I wasn't sure rather or not I even wanted to write it or not, but I clearly opted into writing it as a means to let SOME of the things go. This weekend was a very hard, and very personal one. I will not be giving all of the details but just a few words to explain what's happened, how I am feeling, and my plan to move on.
Earlier my boyfriend and I had a very lengthy and emotional chat. I love him very much, and as you may all know the year of our relationship was not the easiest and smoothest road, but we fell in love, and tried to make things work. Unfortunately sometimes no matter how much you love someone a romantic relationship with them just doesn't work. This is the conclusion my boyfriend (who I guess is actually no longer my boyfriend) and I came to tonight. Laying all of the super personal little details aside (yes I realize this entire blog is about something personal, but certain things I definitely want to keep to myself) the fact of the matter is there is such a thing as being too opposite. Yes they say that opposites attract but when you and your partner are very far from being similar it leaves little chance that you want the same things, and sadly we just don't. I do still love him and care about him very much. He is a good, kind man who has been here for me through a very tough year. I hope that we can in fact remain friends as we plan, and that he will always be a part of my life.
Saying goodbye to someone you love is never easy. I believe I am finding it especially difficult because he was my first love, my first serious relationship, the first man who ever made me feel this way, and whom I wanted to be the last man that I loved, but first loves don't always pan out, and for those of you who were ever so lucky enough to find the right person on their first go, I applaud and congratulate you. That is something very special!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
Earlier my boyfriend and I had a very lengthy and emotional chat. I love him very much, and as you may all know the year of our relationship was not the easiest and smoothest road, but we fell in love, and tried to make things work. Unfortunately sometimes no matter how much you love someone a romantic relationship with them just doesn't work. This is the conclusion my boyfriend (who I guess is actually no longer my boyfriend) and I came to tonight. Laying all of the super personal little details aside (yes I realize this entire blog is about something personal, but certain things I definitely want to keep to myself) the fact of the matter is there is such a thing as being too opposite. Yes they say that opposites attract but when you and your partner are very far from being similar it leaves little chance that you want the same things, and sadly we just don't. I do still love him and care about him very much. He is a good, kind man who has been here for me through a very tough year. I hope that we can in fact remain friends as we plan, and that he will always be a part of my life.
Saying goodbye to someone you love is never easy. I believe I am finding it especially difficult because he was my first love, my first serious relationship, the first man who ever made me feel this way, and whom I wanted to be the last man that I loved, but first loves don't always pan out, and for those of you who were ever so lucky enough to find the right person on their first go, I applaud and congratulate you. That is something very special!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
Saturday 12 April 2014
Moving.
Hello everyone,
I am so sorry that it has been ages since my last update. I meant to blog so much more often than this, this year however just haven't been doing so. I wish I had an excuse but I really don't have one. Anywho moving on...
Quite literally actually (haha I tried to make a joke...I'm not funny am I?)
My lease for where I am currently living is up at the end of the month. I'm cacking my pants, as I need to be moved out on April 30th yet all apartments will only let you move in on May 1st and I still haven't managed to find anything. The major reason behind this is because I've not got enough money in my savings to currently say "YES I WANT THIS PLACE" I nearly have enough money for the damage deposit of the place I am going to view on Monday morning, but find myself still a bit short, and this is making the apartment search quite stressful.
Yes I am a girl who loves to shop, and treat myself to such things as Booster Juice and books, and yes obviously clothing as well. This is NOT the reason I do not have enough money in my savings. That being said yes I have treated myself to these things recently buuuuut what can I say?!
I will have exactly enough money to secure an apartment (well I'll have money left over as well) on my next payday which is not until April 23rd. Here's to hoping it all transitions smoothly.
Until next time,
Keep on Smiling :)
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I am so sorry that it has been ages since my last update. I meant to blog so much more often than this, this year however just haven't been doing so. I wish I had an excuse but I really don't have one. Anywho moving on...
Quite literally actually (haha I tried to make a joke...I'm not funny am I?)
My lease for where I am currently living is up at the end of the month. I'm cacking my pants, as I need to be moved out on April 30th yet all apartments will only let you move in on May 1st and I still haven't managed to find anything. The major reason behind this is because I've not got enough money in my savings to currently say "YES I WANT THIS PLACE" I nearly have enough money for the damage deposit of the place I am going to view on Monday morning, but find myself still a bit short, and this is making the apartment search quite stressful.
Yes I am a girl who loves to shop, and treat myself to such things as Booster Juice and books, and yes obviously clothing as well. This is NOT the reason I do not have enough money in my savings. That being said yes I have treated myself to these things recently buuuuut what can I say?!
I will have exactly enough money to secure an apartment (well I'll have money left over as well) on my next payday which is not until April 23rd. Here's to hoping it all transitions smoothly.
Until next time,
Keep on Smiling :)
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Tuesday 11 March 2014
Health.
Today's Food Log:
Breakfast - Two Pomegranate Raspberry Greek Yogurt's & 1 Sweet & Salty Almond Granola Bar
Lunch - Cheese Bagel toasted and lightly buttered and another granola bar
Dinner - Salad with Balsamic Vinaigrette (Cucumber, Tomato, Cilantro, Red Onion)
Snack: Yet another Almond Granola Bar
Beverages - 2 cups of water, Almond Milk, Apple Juice, and 1 Chillate.
Today's Workout:
15 Minute Walk
20 Crunches
15 Push-Ups
20 Squats
10 Lunges per leg
10 Side Lunges per leg
15 Push-Ups
Plank Hold (1 Minute)
Side Plank Hold (1 Minute per side)
Skater Hops:
Stand on your right foot with your right knee bent, left leg lifted behind you. Lower your body into a squat, then jump to the left, landing on your left leg and bringing your right foot back behind you (keep it hovering off the ground). Pause in the position, then jump back onto your right foot, bringing your left foot bent behind you. Repeat this movement for one minute.
Breakfast - Two Pomegranate Raspberry Greek Yogurt's & 1 Sweet & Salty Almond Granola Bar
Lunch - Cheese Bagel toasted and lightly buttered and another granola bar
Dinner - Salad with Balsamic Vinaigrette (Cucumber, Tomato, Cilantro, Red Onion)
Snack: Yet another Almond Granola Bar
Beverages - 2 cups of water, Almond Milk, Apple Juice, and 1 Chillate.
Today's Workout:
15 Minute Walk
20 Crunches
15 Push-Ups
20 Squats
10 Lunges per leg
10 Side Lunges per leg
15 Push-Ups
Plank Hold (1 Minute)
Side Plank Hold (1 Minute per side)
Skater Hops:
Stand on your right foot with your right knee bent, left leg lifted behind you. Lower your body into a squat, then jump to the left, landing on your left leg and bringing your right foot back behind you (keep it hovering off the ground). Pause in the position, then jump back onto your right foot, bringing your left foot bent behind you. Repeat this movement for one minute.
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